Mark, thanks so much for saying that. It IS quite a story. I think a big part of what I'm trying to do, by intentionally being open, is not lose that story, or the momentum. Does that make sense?

It's true that the last 5 or so years of my life are the picture of God's grace and his ability to redeem anything and everything. This is why I blog. There is also plenty of evidence that I was being open to that grace during that time. I just can't help but think if I had been open sooner and more consistently, the whole experience would have been far less painful. (But that would be a different story, wouldn't it?) Now that my life is "back in order," so to speak, the temptation is to take control of things again, because I feel empowered. Sometimes it's easier to be open when everything's a mess. Now I have to be intentionally unintentional. :)