sometimes labels almost make me ill.  For instance, I kept my married last name.  Now he is remarrying and it feels odd and the "logical" decision I made to keep my married last name makes it so complex.  I feel like in some ways I'm now owning this last name as something different, to own a new path for me.  However, sometimes its unsettling.  

for me this is this strong tension with labels and what they say.  I'm never wanting to be defined but the secret place of me wants to find that label that brings me home.  home within myself.