first this post about knitting really it's post about life deal with life right should find something that will apply unless never have dreams plans maybe have them never screw them along deal with life happen knit bonus seasonal knitter basically gardening season dictate knitting season there's gardening done days still long mild will find knitting after first frost away gardening gloves unpack knitting needles first project season generally something small that make myself before start knitting holiday gifts this year ordered some shades favorite baby alpaca yarn decided make myself stripey soft warm tweets below bold indicate some problems along attempts make myself crazy tried righting wrongs became philosophical about knitting like life stage overly romantic plans dreams inspiration walked cafe brrrr must finish knitting that don't have baby alpaca stripey will make very happy this initial stage recognize need something's missing your life case getting cold envisioned very thing warm cheer romanticized would listen nick drake knitting evenings away while jason nearby reading snippets yorker aloud imagined easy project would satisfied would feel great would look when wore stage something's quite right optimism lives finished making stripey baby alpaca decreases aren't quite right properly adorned apple cake cream frosting this stage you've your goal with relative ease didn't turn quite like envisioned though ready face problem aside turn some other task know conquer finished looks really cute until goofy cone-head effect maybe that getting blocking maybe create seam help control problem think i'll away frost cake instead stage disappointment denial avoidance wrote blog post avoid sitting couch near knitting finished that doesn't look quite right needs fixed know deep down that there aren't quick fixes problem needs dealt with properly you're quite sure what that means plus you're still feeling bruised emotional about whole experience know would start crying faced distraction perfect antidote avoid living room where knitting sits instead spend evening dining room table busying myself with something have more control over writing blog post stage catharsis undoing that went wrong ripping rows knitting gone wrong exhilarating excruciating depending your state mind much life like that when you've couple days over your disappointment you're feeling stable because pretty much everything else your life going you're good place grab bull horns speak sure going ultimately problem know first step ripping last rows stitches there's getting around once accept that begin pull tail yarn watching everything come apart round round circles it's really pretty darn satisfying wrong after about leave that myself mistake start over stage starting over equal parts relief fear determined finish making tonight second time getting things right second time seems pattern there's something very humbling scary about starting over realize went about before isn't going work have something completely what already your faith instructions they failed will know which ones trust look lots knitting books many patterns trying figure which decrease instructions sound right think think about eventually have throw myself into just something plunge ahead know that don't right this time might never make another attempt whole endeavor would most likely trashed shoved into back some drawer closet stage success after failure even sweeter wearing fabulous stripey cooking huevos rancheros when it's said done finished product yours your love more fierce textured real because went through that point there stories lessons woven right into very being weave final tail yarn through stitches taking them needles pulling crown neat flat finish pleased beyond belief over this humble little just made when head feeling gentle warmth snugness jason admires glow i've been wearing almost constantly ever since 