photo gordana adamovic-mladenovic life shifts prepare good hard pattern trust embrace matter times hold life times moved michigan central illinois divorced left church post-divorce relationship fell lost biggest freelance client cases life changed significantly winds change arrived short order gust fresh times spent longer felt stagnant space worry heartache despair felt breeze time good happened thinking work years summer suddenly lost primary client responsible half paid writing projects loved work paid consistent thought news planning hire locally full time amount writing needed reached tipping point made financial sense hire freelance rates devastated enjoy work people jason month wedding honeymoon greece words month out-of-the-ordinary expenses debt married time parents managed costs wedding reception financial worries ahead fully enjoyed moment honeymoon planned arrived home credit card bills empty days client work wondering post categorized belief doubt hope essentially post trust faith god's work life sort belief plan helping work messes happen we're human realize concept stretch feels stretch unhappy moments filled doubt possibly bring good circle back bottom-of-my-soul belief bigger grasp full love goodness working life evidence move central illinois allowed marriage needed divorce allowed touch offer leaving church allowed embrace understanding completely freeing post-divorce relationship ending allowed open love helped sort matters relationship ultimately marry jason start writing blog book client continued demanding freelance contract endless work days summers fears money worth professional success write stories needed write stories clamoring necessarily mater wrote wrote wrote remembering past ahead eventually client work picked clients continued blogging working book proposal committed leaving time space filling work hours client projects hard remember life blog creative outlet impetus write community readers hard remember life jason life michigan time felt freelance work slow worry money societal measurements success open life time expectant gust gentle breeze change 