brother-in-law's pug-beagle photo jason berg girls babies breastfeeding busy days punctuated moments peace calm worry part dogs true daughter baby sister busy toddler worked part-time copywriter design firm typical household chores midst potty training battle wills starting enjoy play dates organized activities midst bustle count baby needing middle gardening needed start dinner harbored touch resentment hungry baby snack hold distract activity baby thing needed succumbed felt grateful needed permission attend part required sitting completely relaxed read enjoyed baby busy days punctuated peaceful intervals babies guessed start worry human realize food hold simply hopes filling hole life unrealistic possibly disastrous jason talked extensively pros cons lives multiple reasons we've decided decision time revolving middle daughter whisperer couple weeks felt life spinning slightly control deadlines responsibilities realized wished wished excuse calm times breastfeeding suddenly occurred love attention dogs soothing relaxing stroke thing dogs regular exercise count craving -minute walk middle computer clear head talk times pull leave warm house walk moments wished stop feed baby routine good feed soul stretch legs offer fresh time what's missing life girls older self-sufficient missing reason pause busyness search past month we've adopt saga worthy separate blog post match night jason drove zionsville indiana meet seven-month-old pug-beagle home foster family she's sweetheart calm docile easygoing settled happily stayed hours petting silky ears neck drug lulling thick sweet stupor experience living room posted 