One way the darkness would manifest for me is that I was afraid of bugs, specifically bugs in my apartment.  Once I saw a bug in my apt and moved out temporarily, without even explaining to my roommate what was happening.  I had been prone to episodes like this before: see something I was afraid of and then run away.  Funny enough, I hold a high paying job and am able to function and be "on" but in my free time I would tend to unravel.

During the time of this episode and my hiatus from my apartment, I had an epiphany:  That these episodes sustained because I would go deeper and deeper into myself.  I thought, what if there were a gift here?  What if, in my darkest moments, there were angels?

And so I pushed myself forward.  I forced myself to call anyone and everyone I knew whom I felt comfortable with and get out of the house.  In that week, I called someone with whom I used to work and found myself explaining my bug thing to him.  What was funny was that instead of telling me to get over, he agreed that bugs could be pretty nasty, but that he could come get me and take me back to my apartment, where I belonged.

And he did.

We have been together for almost 3 years since that night...me and my angel!  And, he is one of many angels I have encountered, often in the darkest of times.  I also make sure to be an angel for others, when needed and appropriate!