For your personal well being I wish you the strength to soldier on, dig deep and face the challenge. For the professional you, I wonder if this is more like a puzzle that needs to be solved rather than the possibility of an unending Catch22. I can appreciate your quandry about supplying those of us who like hands on vs. e-publishing. Who buys a mag on-line for $1.75? Many people, for many different reasons, likely even the same people who still want the paper sometimes. Wondering if there is a way to do both?