Dave, as usual, you're giving me a new way to think about the things that are on my mind. We are created in God's image, so the fact that we could be "in training," as you put it, makes some sense. Hmmm. I'm going to ponder that some more.

TJ, ah, "patience training." I always need more of that. I also need opportunities to look back on something that seemed so maddening at the time, and see how in the larger picture it really doesn't end up being a big deal.

Jeb, my annoyance shifted directly to me these past couple of days. And you're so right—while feeling annoyed might seem like a small thing that gives some relief in the moment, it "quickly turns to something worse, and has a way of infiltrating my every thought."

Trina, yes, I completely believe God gives us free will, and I wouldn't want it any other way. We end up experiencing our share of pain and "wasting" a fair amount of time learning things the hard way, but it makes for a richer life with more learning experiences. At the same time, I guess I do believe that God cares about the little things as well as the big things, and he can help us if we ask and are open to being truly helped (rather than just getting what we want). I just often forget to ask about the little things, or I ask with a stubborn spirit and an agenda. 

Naomi, you're right—making our own opportunities is really critical. We were, after all, created with all kinds of problem-solving capabilities. We can't always wait for some "sign" before we do anything. It's good to think and plan and gather some wisdom, but at some point we have to step out in a direction that feels right, and see what happens. 

Ken, thank you for being so forthright and honest—with me and regarding yourself. No, I can't really say I am focused on God's will for my life. What "Kristin wants" pushes its way to the top of the pile fairly often, even if that thing I want is desired with pure and good motivations. There have been periods of time when I've really been focused on God's will for my life, usually when I reach a point of utter frustration and despair, and my own plans and ideas have been exhausted. During those times, amazing and wonderful things have happened in my life. Then, during times of relative comfort, I wander, and need to consciously re-orient myself. I'm definitely in one of those periods now. Thanks for making these idea connections for me. 

Meagan, thanks so much! I love your last point about small trials versus big trials. It's SO true. Enough crumbs can make a whole meal, but so often I'm distracted, looking and waiting for the more obvious whole loaf, so to speak. I need to remember to gather up and be thankful for all the valuable crumbs and life lessons.