woke morning feeling grouchy columbus controversial part columbus remembered celebrating national hero history website singularly focused mission find riches conquer lands columbus teams treated indigenous groups obstacles greater mission celebrate concerned admit humanitarian side rearing righteously angry head morning pure selfishness real reason baditude fact kids school today thing banks closed questionable holiday thing disrupt productive monday wanted blame columbus mixed blessings parenthood related post feast famine family together-time enjoyed weekend lovely suddenly cross line lovely togetherness extreme togetherness desperately break girls space reestablish individual identities jason remember individuals mama spending lots time things feared freelancing transitioning real grown dependent quiet thinking writing time fine thing crave sense interfering parenting pleasures place decided attitude check morning process practicing positive thinking easily arrived things grateful school excuse learned embrace tiny baby aspects parenting newborn required letting breastfeeding significant matter thought accomplish planned dinner table time feed goals plans prop bottle multi-task breastfeeding times quickly accepted hold fill required gift blocks time school-less appreciating excuse endless work-related to-do list practicing spontaneity contradiction spontaneity practiced out-of-the-ordinary clear schedule purpose morning dropped friend's house younger girls ended staying hour girls played walk refreshing meaningful conversation needed today needed time crawl inside diversifying definition work easily read write limiting definition work what's head computer unhealthy parenting forces exercise parts mind body mind kind problem solving communication called body change scene bikes park library drag project yard random school plans garage coat paint kitchen cabinets kids play savoring simple pleasures woke wishing organized playdates activities girls rare rich unplanned unexpected simple pleasures instance happily whiled hour researching creating habitat grasshopper caught morning captivated happy observant audience stretched couch good book favorite blanket everyday moments satisfying enjoy grilled cheese tomato soup lunch treat work lunchbox school make combination tastes triggered nostalgia simple pleasure school realized feeling grouchy conversation kids complexities celebrating columbus parent moment important little-big thing 