photo finally reached point life dislike guess longer stuck cramped uncomfortable love-hate place manage dismay time time church behavior not-so-pretty behind-the-scenes nitty-gritty stick basics lead music church month let's fairly music songs theologically musically tempos feel wrong picky sound quality balance sing harmony play viola hear what's issues tambourine leave situations manage monitor opinions control tongue choose battles yesterday morning arrived early church practice rubbed wrong head needed communicate thoughts started stop share manage opinions guess felt terrible hated acting opinions matter sharing bluntly hated attitude expressing opinions great gift people thinking thing nice considerate speak make worship distracting worshipful excuse back mind true part thinking depressing things ideas opinions articulate quickly turn things kinder gentler flexible repentance grace kinds thanksgiving story takes good turn apologized leading worship prayed service felt spirit moving place gave sang song initial music pastor began thanksgiving teaching people sharing versions gratitude gathered devoted volunteer soup kitchen recently baptized gave woman wonderful humorous storyteller shared experience wrestling recently played drums jazz blues greats one-man blues band expressing thanksgiving percussion bugle voice honest crazy worship service wonderful eclectic ways filled thanksgiving church community accepts forgives faults huge thankful experiencing world stories express gratitude ways deeply moved songs move played chosen beautiful thing 