photo moriza york past days overly stimulated utterly exhausted life leaves feeling quite fiber awake hyper-alert constantly verge collapse parenting young children closest thing you've analogies love hear visiting york couple times year clients long-time friend carmen favorite people lives brooklyn bonus trip finally meeting karen twitter friends wrote modern penpal reunion love york invigorating aspects obvious love food people-watching intense variety surprise recalibrate expectations stretching boundaries love knowing hear unexpected challenge thrown path tools love deciding makes feel adventurous capable wondering survived google maps phone beats quite city apologies lives lived york start debate gathering reactions occasional visitor limited capacities chaos long crashed hotel figure felt pummeled exhilarated city exciting mind walked found moments rest feel alive beat finally realized feel complete emotional-physical-mental exhaustion home physically exhausted mentally worn emotionally spent york resources give grow tired acting rushed impatient refusing smile feel constantly disoriented time emerge subway station feel stranded clue north south wireless bathroom break miss beat absent-minded sensory exhaustion layered gradually building finding pockets silence stillness peace impromptu retreat refueling takes effort find place settle stuff table conference room client's office settle mind feel scattered restless missing exciting important planned fair amount writing york week make happen experiencing city worth raucous party missed matter terrible makes feel days good analogy york jager-bomb sophisticated drink caffeinated alcholic thing case order business back small midwestern town coming buzz properly sleeping city hangover 