I was in therapy and medicated after our first child was born for anxiety with extremely difficult thoughts.  I'm so open about it now and often am met with: "thanks for telling me your story, I wish I had known and I probably should have gotten help but didn't." As my psychiatrist said, you'll feel better if the instructions are followed. I've often said to new moms, if you feel horrible, don't worry it's actually normal for 50% of new moms, but it is diagnosable and there is help.  I really enjoy hearing other people's comments and your story.  If someone isn't or hasn't dealt with anxiety/depression, they know someone who is.  Thanks.