i've always wanted write about faith it's biggest scariest writing challenge tricky place honestly every aspect life interwoven with faith belief system same time adverse most things labeled thought christian makes kind delicate write about without immediately turning crowd pissing other forget delicacy though i'll risk pissing some people maybe eventually turning others hope here some things labeled thought christian that tend react against contemporary christian music christian christian fiction especially concept christian romance end-of-time novels don't think need explain quotation marks christian political right neo-conservatism facade happiness wholeness that most christians have perfected particularly sunday morning pro-abstinence pro-life advocates don't address societal personal problems that come with unwanted children stds bashing from people sure homosexuality also sure they personally don't comparable general intolerance idea that issues black white after divorce when lost many christian friends asked leaders church attending take communion knew first-hand many people hate very least dismiss people faith religious institutions pretty much soul shut down while then people from this place called covenant fellowship most faithful christian friend becca also bugging insistently leave church that heart stunted growth find place where could find myself grow finally together started going covenant which physical terms group quirky wonderful pilgrims gather refurbished warehouse building that community place i've connected some cases reconnected other cases discovered first time with things about faith that have deeply rooted hold here just when study jesus life it's clear that living treating others doing justice best created exactly goal struggle change that essence becoming idea christian perfection goal become even more fully created created community with another helping each other learning about love forgiveness along truly loves wants bless spite ways screw daily have evidence blessings everywhere look there important work done god's kingdom even regular people like missionary africa haiti writer east central illinois called find work this what comes down when very from faith years whole life balance everything felt wrong quickly turned sour matter hard tried make work since i've begun worshiping this warehouse feel foundational harmony life relationships waning sense want need restlessness true self whether church home oddly enough have t-shirts that this wholeness they were made from illustration wedding invitations shirts which gave friends helped with wedding kinds ways screen-printed with continuous single-line drawing that first outlines covenant building where were married then soma lounge where drank danced after wedding finally house where lead day-to-day lives learning love forgive live even more light 