i wrote something so similar to this in perspective, kristin. i just didn't have the heart to publish it. it's a post called are you there, God? it's me, annie. (as in annie le.) i'm left feeling sad and heavy - what will happen to the girls? nothing can replace a mother's love, and all any of us can do in a time like this is pray for supernatural intervention from God. I know He will intervene. Like you, I don't know how - or why - I just know. And, I cling to that. You always provide such provocative posts, KT. I really like it.