photo andreia night share news girls friend maricela died cancer maricela intersected lives ways daughters church moved year gave ride church maricela younger daughter celeste daughter's kindergarten fourth grade classes year graders shared table math maricela taught native spanish speakers girls elementary school spending part year younger daughter's grade classroom year news cancer stealing life care hard figure share news children impossible coming terms real feelings heaven found maricela died saturday morning spent time saturday processing waves sadness thinking girls dad's house weekend natural desire front kids they've plenty wanted feel felt cues mama bear urge protect make sorted thoughts mind considered nice neat sentiments christians responded death ages maricela heaven she's pain anymore she's people loves died ground sense join perfect place maricela comfort belief hard admit true believing sort heaven make feel moments imagine telling kids hopes making feel abstract fully account real earthly pain death address day-to-day emotional maricela's young daughters extended family lives mexico part lives years ache feel bear compassion registering daughters eyes talked night believing heaven irrelevant recognizing hanging experience made face issues ways quite midst doubt confusion sadness grab solid comfort protect maricela's daughters ways humanly begin comprehend pray girls pray make difference clinging belief daughter maricela's daughter kindergarden field trip left photo 