photo d'arcy norman difficult girl hard remember coming room sort argument crying felt terrible reason impossible determined willed words stuck opened mouth spent years thinking core makes stubborn thankfully made progress words rolled tongue divorce attest heaps wrongs gradually pile garbage dump hurts angers collected time mountains muster courage step front pain sincerity small thing face overwhelming mess feels you've steps huge mountain trash exhausted camp night easy feel defeated hopeless begin one-time verbal gradually divorce learned amazing thing amazing things here's learned healing expression sorrow regret forgiveness spoken words single moment process lived small actions great stretch time people daunting feels doable real yesterday sort filled grace forgiveness tense awkward moments verbal acceptances apologies life lived simple harmonious ex-husband morning jason's ex-wife afternoon soccer game exciting deal missed month check post parenting spectator sport girls parents weekend jason maeve headed soccer field scattered thought bring blanket chairs field playing bleachers middle daughter sitting blanket stepmom eager bond invited share blanket spent hour chatting doting maeve cheering team sitting comfortably morning sunshine forgiveness feels trip lunch jason home ex-wife partner baby invited celebrate birthday you're confused friendship back archives read road trip husband's ex-wife gorgeous party yard talked afternoon sunshine drinking wine showered birthday attention watched open presents maeve introduced enormous beast creating entertaining sight cake late afternoon drooped causing reach sweaters headed home forgiveness feels cake laughter conversation baby celebrate glad learning side forgiveness inch inch side suggesting words incredibly important starting words walking everything's generally quick-fix approach won't mountain hurt anger desperately we're find land grace 