photo woodleywonderworks college living dorms field fall involving straight-up sports softball crazy relays fights relays involved running soccer field partner crazy remember crazy part running terry tall happened paired terry lithe long-legged full energy competitive spirit terry wind effect wind forget feeling running field terry essentially pulled clasped hands long legs propelling feet pedaled frantically occasionally making contact earth looked cartoon character scrambling traction ready moment sprawling face simply hanging dear life life felt past month exhilarating exhausting makes feel running race mine legs control makes feel brink major wipe change practical past week started practical steps taking back life baby steps full speed ahead kind committed routine regular overly ambitious lots physical activity summer walking biking coworking space working yard regular sustained kind exercise heart pumping makes sweat physical mental health who's make happen learning delegate week worship leaders meeting church found excited ideas willingness make happen mid-meeting stopped spoke hereditary problem optimistic hours scaled back involvement reasonable pinpointed stressful time-consuming aspect leading worship planning days completely delegated planning sunday's service friend gifts area felt great devising strategies battle stress stress things manage forms feeds areas stressful stress money jason talked cash-only budget plan month groceries pocket money stress messy house firm recruiting kids busy evenings yesterday jason decided abandon elaborate meal plan simpler involving fewer dishes making overwhelms house manageable setting cleaning timer minutes tackling clutter letting baby steps important emotional bigger issue elusive eats core ignore taking back part life embodies love emotional-spiritual-personal part slowly dies forget feed writer julie hammonds devised calls love list writes essay book divorce includes essay wrote julie recently divorced crossroads life taped large piece paper pantry door wrote love determined grow future fertile ground loves life makes feel alive feel lost connection love time time glance race running running moment life significant crossroads moment start making love list groundwork taking back life 