found friend this past week thanks facebook course finding someone facebook relatively easy therefore it's relatively common hear about surface this might diminish some magic least telling story it's like hired private investigator track friend down just think days before could remember married name yawn want when haven't been touch with someone decade suddenly you're communicating again that contact making examine think about huge chunk yourself your past it's deal finding this week been exciting deal have confess hadn't thought about years nowhere these past weeks she's been mind think part it's because i've been feeling hole sorts life girlfriend-shaped hole that only filled person really gets always ready always mean every hear latest greatest most miniscule ridiculous parts your life have lots good friends it's been almost year since i've that kind friend soul been hungry friend that hunger naturally made think about people past have been that kind friend that made wonder what qualifications such friend might when gets down think quest friend mirrors life quest whole point behind this blog want comfortable halfway normal state want have people around accept where this response comment left previous post where some happiness think writing various blog posts that started thinking about again after many years most likely came mind because were always those rare people seemed accept halfway normal state--perhaps even before myself foot world another particular halfway normal-ness takes form many aspects life struggle between spiritual secular worlds always been most prominent some instances think split perceived worlds aren't actually that different mind simply playing tricks heart other moments though there's doubt that divide between worlds very real caught between struggle connection friendships began when teenager went public high school didn't want pegged overly religious kept that part check then went christian college amazed freeing have that spiritual part accepted even assumed sort freeing that until realize that some assumptions being made ones want claim then realize other assumptions ones can't rightly claim you're really good everyone thinks expects suddenly realize foundation your facade been poured that particular moment time that summer after sophomore year college were living house together jersey shore story another time perhaps first christian friend could fully myself with although went school pittsburgh grand rapids made long drive visit another several times wrote weekly postcards stay close generally feel less alone world that's kind thing people back early stay touch when they couldn't afford long distance phone bills didn't know thing about email fifteen years later though find another facebook soak ambient awareness twitter find ways halfway normal together again very thankful 