photo gaetan yesterday afternoon foot care errands wanting soak sunshine relative warmth walked mind wandered prone walking subconsciously recognized small aching emptiness identify female companionship started thinking friend susan thought nice talk wondered walk house home post office bank minutes blocks house turned corner susan half block walking straight pushing one-year-old twins stroller slush surprised seconds realize seconds recognize lost thought distressed news received heading downtown started walking susan venting listening babies great thing babies tend strollers sitting staring suddenly occurred meeting susan block moment needed simply coincidence non-coincidences happen lots people experiences we're simultaneously awe-struck freaked reflect perfect happened easily small gift running friend moment times bigger message delivered bigger moment friend mine costa rica year found mother died walking beach wife processing grief compelled walk water's edge pause pick ordinary-looking twig blue ball point written english mind love greater mother's love child stick deserted beach bend pick let's pause starting feel tiny nervous start talking angels destiny relax stories call thing mysteriously lives time time review things moments thoughts ideas case wondering happen friend town reason moment thinking susan month numerous routes house business district blocks routes susan house bakery headed hours errands easily decided work susan decided trouble bundle babies outing bigger luck coincidence random work lives point stars gods call serendipity orchestrate moments lives time time happen capital reference makes uncomfortable feel free swap lose conversation make things make walk directions words life puppet show plenty here's taste business making paths cross friends strategically placing message-delivering twigs decide make happen bother supposed feel steps takes care things perfectly moments leave hanging disproportionately make poetic things happen people role ushering moments moments brink happening awake respectful nudgings responsibility open attention chime posts similar topics striving intentional endless trail crumbs 